100

Nope not 100 strokes, 100 posts! And therefore my 100th consecutive day of posting. (Don't believe me, look at the archive counter on the right!)

I'm quite chuffed with myself. When I began this blogging lark I wasn't quite sure if I'd get past 10 such posts! While veterans of the spanking scene like The Spanking Writers, Bonnie and Todd&Suzy always seemed to blog so effortlessly, I figured it probably wasn't as easy as they made it seem.

I had so little confidence in what I was doing it took me a week to tell people I had a blog at all! I was worried I didn't write well enough or that I didn't have anything interesting to say. Or even worse that I'd only blog for a wet week before I lost the discipline to continue.

My motivations were purely to record all my new experiences. I wanted to set down what I did, who with, how I felt at the time and how I felt afterwards.

I also thought it would be a good way to track my kinky development. And even after three months I can see changes in me as a kinky person as well as what I talk about on here. I began talking of trying group play, school scenes and maybe something as adventurous as a reformatory scene. It was very much CP based. Now I'm talking of playing with Dommes and the more submissive side of BDSM play.

So I set out my blogging stall with a get out jail free card, declaring the blog was just for me and I wouldn't be posting every day and I didn't care what anyone thought of what I was doing. That was you told.

Well that lasted all of a week. I quickly came to love blogging. It's addictive and you can't shut me up. But moreover I love comments, yes my name is Emma Jane and I am a comment slut! And the more comments I get the more I want to ensure what I write is worthwhile and interesting.

I continue to spend ages writing posts, editing them over and over. Trying to get the tone right, trying to express myself properly, trying to connect with you. And although it has gotten easier, I'm still obsessive about what I write. At least for me personally though it's been worthwhile and I get a little thrill of satisfaction reading back over what I've written.

But what I wasn't at all prepared for were all the added bonuses that blogging brings. I've met lots of new people through it and it's a great way for potential play partners to get a sense of me and and understanding of where I'm coming from.

Even more importantly though, is the emotional outlet blogging provides. This thing we do can be very powerful and at times I have been thrown by the intensity of my reactions and feelings. I often use the blog to process: scenes, situations, relationships. Just the act of marshaling and describing my thoughts is so therapeutic in itself. Allowing me to analyse, rationalise, accept and move on.

So thanks to all of you who have commented and encouraged so far, and to those of you who read but don't comment go on say hi someday, I dare ya!