Thursday, May 21

Shy, moi?

I wouldn't describe myself as a shy person. If you've met me you wouldn't describe me as a shy person either! And generally I'm not, I love being around people and making new friends.

But I also have the philosophy of 'fake it til you make it'. So for those rare occasions where I am shy or nervous, I act like I'm not.

Mostly this comes in very useful for my job, but also I've discovered it's invaluable as a newbie in the kinky scene. Like when I made that initial (brief) visit to my new friends, knowing I was going to be spanked for the first time in years and then making that second (longer) visit for a whole weekend of play.

Or for my first BDSM club night, dressed as a schoolgirl and meeting all these people who already knew each other. Then doing my first public scene: spanked OTK, strapped and caned in front of so many strangers.

But really it was going to London, to meet 14 other spankos I had never met before, where it really served me well. I had been emailing one of them on and off for a few weeks and another I started chatting to just a week beforehand. But I'd never met any of them before.

So when I arrived in the hotel to meet the first 3, the ones I was staying with, I spent a few nervous moments downstairs plucking up the courage to go up to them. When I finally met them I appeared like I wasn't nervous at all, greeting and chatting away as if I'd known them all my life. And later when I met the other 11 people I was pretty much the same. On the outside laughing and chatting while on the inside trying not to succumb to the urge to run away!

Although really I was having too much fun to do that. And later when EmmaJane the brat came out she took over completely. She managed to get herself into all sorts of trouble goaded on by persons who shall remain nameless, isn't that right Eliane?

So much so that by the time we were on our way back to the hotel my nerves were of a different kind, knowing a spanking and possibly a caning were in store, (which duly took place!).

I guess I'm lucky because either way, whether I'm feeling shy or not, I don't let it affect me and it seems to put other people at ease meeting me. So this weekend when I'm making another trip to meet friends, both old and new, I know I'll be ok.

I'm just a lil bit nervous about what they are going to do to this poor little innocent Irish girl...


Caroline Grey said...

Ha, as I know you to be neither poor, not innocent, that leaves you with only "little" and "Irish".

And I am pretty sure I know exactly what they are going to do to you!!!

Eliane said...

Excuse me, but are you trying to blame your bad behaviour in March on me?! I'm sorry, but I was not goading anyone, merely making conversation!
As for being shy, I know what you mean. I can be painfully shy, especially when meeting new people. They would generally never know it though.

Abel1234 said...

I know what you mean about nerves... For me, it's not just meeting new people per se that makes me nervous (where I can put on a brave face and seem quite extrovert, provided there are no more than a few of them). But when one meets someone with whom one's corresponded for a while, there's the nerves of wondering whether they'll be as lovely in real life as they are online. And it's quite, quite wonderful when they are ;-)

EmmaJane said...

Hey Abel, yes I agree with that. You hope that you've corresponded enough to know whether you'll like them or not, but you can only do so much by email. There needs to be some sort of chemistry in person to want to develop a friendship.

I seem to have lucked out thus far and everyone I'v met has been as lovely as I expected. Indeed some have been even more lovely in person ;)